I want to apologize for my extended absence. I have been in a weird little funk for a few months now…I think perhaps called “winter”. A few days ago something turned–shifted–in a major way. I was home sick in bed Sunday watching unbelievably and unjustifiably bad “reality” TV on MTV.com (yes, I clearly sought it out enough to first see if MTV showed the episodes online and then to subsequently watch them online) and then magically decided to sew a shirt. It sounds minor, but there was a palpable click, turn, shift in my mental state of being. Like I was re-excited, re-motivated and reinvigorated. Going to work the next day didn’t seem so painful and it actually got interesting for me again. All the extra obligations in my life stopped feeling so burdensome and actually seemed like the opportunities I thought they were when I first took them on…not that I’ve really gotten moving on them, but at least my mind and spirit are on board again.
A lot of this is really just seasonal. I think it’s getting worse as I get older and I’m seeing why people retire in Florida. I’m always ok at the beginning…even hopeful that I’ll enjoy it a little. But it never sticks. The bare branches, the grey skies, the fact that I literally would get around 15 hours a week of exposure to even a hint of sunshine, all concentrated on the weekend (I work in a windowless office where it’s easy to forget that there even is an outside with weather and sun). And although spring has taken a long time to come this year, once it did, my will to live made a full 180. What’s strange is every year it’s such a surprise as though I have absolutely no long term memory. Maybe it’s because I do feel like it’s getting worse, but maybe I only feel like it’s getting worse because I can’t seem to remember that this is obviously going to happen every year…so I’m caught off guard and then strangely shocked that I could be so seasonally affected. It’s the hope that gets in the way–the hope that this year I will like winter. I’m not much of an optimist, so whenever I attempt it it really throws the rest of my brain functions, like logical reasoning, out of whack.
And now, I will share the first piece of physical proof that things are looking up.
I think I’m getting more patient, detail-oriented and just better at this with each project…which is ****ing fantastic. On this one, I made up the (relatively simple) pattern using an old shirt for fit and an Anthropologie shirt for the design. I’m still in the copying stage, so I can build up techniques and then go crazy with my own designs later. My case in point that I don’t know what I’m doing yet is facings. Facings!!!! Arghh! I didn’t realize until I had no fabric left that it would have been far better to have done an all-in-one facing than separate armhole and neckline facings, which when overlapped get a little bulky. It’s not too bad in this case since the fabric is Liberty of London cotton lawn, which is very light. But I also had a lot of trouble keeping the damn facings down, which forced to me do some research on proper techniques. Hence the (organic) lace trim to weigh the facings down a little and this simple, yet surprisingly effective little trick called understitching. Ultimately, this was the first time the inside of the piece looks just about as neat as the outside. Maybe my laziness is seasonal, too. Here’s hoping…
Speaking of hope and change…I’m hoping to come back to this space with greater regularity…my life has been consumed lately with the purchase of a new bicycle (or I should say the saga of an attempted purchase), which is a story/issue I want to share soon…
Until then, happy Spring!!!!!